Today is $hitty!

yesterday was the first really shit day since Jordan got here. I am still SO mad and not even sure why it pisses me off so much. All I want is a "sorry". Yesterday Jordan went to a friends (JS)at 1pm he told us he would be home at 8:30pm that was fine till JS's mom called at 5pm to see if they were here...well they were not here and I felt (feel) like an idiot.
then this morning I go to go out and take my Ipod only to find out that the headphone jack is now wrecked. Edward talked to Jordan about not letting us know were he was and thats not why I'm upset he was home at 7pm so all was good there it just looks bad that I didn't know where my kid was. I am upset that the Ipod got wrecjed but it can be fixed Edward is good at that stuff. What really hurts is he never told me and I'm furstrated cause Edward takes his side saying maybe he doesn't know he did it. I am not in a mood that it will help to talk to Jordan I just want to sit and cry I am so frustrated with the whole situation. I love him so much but am hurt by something so small. It seems silly to be upset.

I guess I'll have to talk to him sooner or later but for now I'm going to go out for a few hours with a friend and see what happens when I get home I asked Edward to talk to Jordan while I'm gone. I will also go to aqua fit tomorrow and get some of the frustrations out.

Mom!

Family outing

today we all, my family and daycare kids went to Fort Edmonton park and boy was it fun. It was the first thing we have done that Edward came with us.

Mom!

One week down

OK we made it through one week no major problems. I am almost done school shopping so that's a bonus. We are going to Fort Edmonton park tomorrow. Just taking it day by day. We have not hit any snags thus far. I just feel so blessed. Katie is having a hard time she would like to send Jordan back to his mom she told me she doesn't want him to live here... she'll get over it we talked about why Jordan is here so hopefully she will start to understand that. Sarah is just going with the flow. Jenny seems to be doing a bit better this week no as angry anymore. Then there is Lucas he is on cloud 9 still me just loves Jordan to pieces.

Mom!

first test

went very well told to be home at 7 home before 5pm had dinner and went back out and was home before I got back with Timmies..lol Ok so far so good.
Mom!

August 1

OK Aug 1 has brought Lucas pink eye..lol Jordan is having his first and only chance to go out with his friend... Lets see what happens it is 2:17pm Edward gave him till 7pm to be home.

Mom!

The last day of July!

so today is the last day of July I sit here with so much to do to think about and then I smile I already done so much in the month of July and it will just be getting more and more crazy from here on in. I wish things would have been different I mean the outcome is what I wanted don't get me wrong but did she have to hurt his feels so much? I will love away the pain it will just take time, Jordan hasn't said much... he is hurting I see that but I know its not quiet time for us to talk about it. When she left on Wednesday night she only said "goodbye" no hugs or kisses no I love you. I wanted to yell at her your leaving your first born at my house you can at least tell him you love him and give him a kiss and a hug he may not want it but you still are his mother.. Oh time will heal this a long time...

Today Jordan has to call probation so here we go on to the next chapter.

Jenny is doing a lot better, Sarah is just along for the ride,Katie is not dealing to great she is peeing her pants and she can't sleep she is slow to make adjustments and Lucas is on cloud 9 he is so in love with Jordan it is the most wonderful thing.

Lucas had to go to the Er yesterday morning he woke up screaming he was saying his neck hurt turns out he pulled a muscle and it will just take time to get better. At the hospital Lucas says Jordan home? Yes he's still there. Jordan got here at bedtime so Lucas didn't know he stayed. I have never seen a greater bond then Lucas and Jordan...shh I'm glad she sent Jordan back sooner cause for 4 days Lucas thought Jordan was in the car..lol

Can't wait to see what August brings
Mom!

Jordan

This Is A Big Change In Your Life, I Can See But I'm Willing To Give All The Love Within Me
I'm Not Your Real Mother ,I Grant You That Thought But I Will Teach You What Your Real Father Taught
We Can Do All The Things That You Used To Do It May Feel A Little Strange But We'll Get Through That, Too! I'll Stand By Your Side Through Thick And Thin But Please Never Forget...I'm Here As Your Friend

I Love You,Lynda