The last day of July!

so today is the last day of July I sit here with so much to do to think about and then I smile I already done so much in the month of July and it will just be getting more and more crazy from here on in. I wish things would have been different I mean the outcome is what I wanted don't get me wrong but did she have to hurt his feels so much? I will love away the pain it will just take time, Jordan hasn't said much... he is hurting I see that but I know its not quiet time for us to talk about it. When she left on Wednesday night she only said "goodbye" no hugs or kisses no I love you. I wanted to yell at her your leaving your first born at my house you can at least tell him you love him and give him a kiss and a hug he may not want it but you still are his mother.. Oh time will heal this a long time...

Today Jordan has to call probation so here we go on to the next chapter.

Jenny is doing a lot better, Sarah is just along for the ride,Katie is not dealing to great she is peeing her pants and she can't sleep she is slow to make adjustments and Lucas is on cloud 9 he is so in love with Jordan it is the most wonderful thing.

Lucas had to go to the Er yesterday morning he woke up screaming he was saying his neck hurt turns out he pulled a muscle and it will just take time to get better. At the hospital Lucas says Jordan home? Yes he's still there. Jordan got here at bedtime so Lucas didn't know he stayed. I have never seen a greater bond then Lucas and Jordan...shh I'm glad she sent Jordan back sooner cause for 4 days Lucas thought Jordan was in the car..lol

Can't wait to see what August brings
Mom!